It's my BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
oh ya it's my birthday whooo hoooo he he he

What to say what to say...
ok so... I have decided that I want to be one of those people that is always taking pictures. I remember that when I was growing up there was this guy (bro. Smith) who was always taking pictures. I mean you never saw him with out a camera hanging around his neck. Ha Ha I was just thinking he would of been a great wedding photographer because you know he would of caught every moment in a picture. =) oops sorry for the tangent.
so yes that is my early resolution, but knowing me I will forget about it next week. I have this problem that I want to do everything! And so I never pursue anything. Did that make sense? Ok so my problem is that I am good at to many things and I am not passionate about any ONE thing, so I never concentrate on one thing. Which brings me to my real problem of... I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. (oops I am grown up and I still don't know what I want to do.) And now I am forced to find a job, career or direction in which I can support myself and I see the future and I see nothing. Wow I am pathetic, what kind of person doesn't have any aspirations in life.
I like helping people
I like Animals
I like health care (not my own of course)
but school bores me, I don't think I could do the school thing again.
what to do what to do.
anywho there are my thoughts as of lately. =)
thanks for listening.

My Very First Root Canal...

ok so i was in a ton of tooth pain and so i had an emergency appointment with the dentist. They took one exray and sent me straight over to the endodontics.
ok... so i had heard all these horrible things about root canals and everything, but it wasn't bad, my dr. was very nice, gentle and made sure i was completly numbed. ok i do have to admit that's it's not all roses, because my mouth hurts, but that's because it's healing, and it's not anywhere near the pain i was in before. I am glade that i have good insurance, because well ... i have another root canal on Tuesday. i know i know, i let it get to far, but hey we live and learn right. Now i will try and stay more on top of the maintence of my teeth, well i guess everything.
oh ok so umm... for those of you that know me, your jaw might drop when i say this, but lately i have been baby hungry. weird i know, but it's true. So that has in turn made me start wanting to date seriously to get married. yup i want to get married, i've said it.
but you know what they say... when you decide you want to get married, all of your opportunites go away, and then you turn into someone who feels asthough they are the only single people on the planet and will never get married. and now i have become one of these people that thinks that marriage sounds like somthing good that i would like to try.
anywho I've decided not to even really think about it and put it in the Lord's hands.

Ok, so I finally unpacked all of ... Well my crap (cause let's face it I don't have anything worth of real value or that I would consider to be stealable). So I moved back into my dad's home how long ago and I am just now unpacking. I guess I figured why unpack, I'd probably just move again. (I have a problem with commitment or well settling down) but I have decided to make my room, well my room and home. So I unpacked last night... And you all know me. When I say last night I mean early this morning like 2 - 4:30 AM. What can I say I love to work at night, I get more done. There's no one watching you what your doing, or asking you questions or wanting to help. I've always been like that ever since I was a little girl too. What can I say my brain becomes very active at night. That's
when I do all my art work, projects, work out... Etc.
any who I found my baby book and I of course looked at it again, like I have done a thousand times when I find it or notice it again. Ok so I flipped one of the pages and there at the bottom of the page I see this ink that is fresher then the rest. It reads Period 13 1/2 (and the date don't worry wont share that much detail). Ok so my mouth dropped open in awe... I never noticed that my mom had gone back into my baby book (which hasn't been written in since I was like 2) and she added that information. I had no idea that she thought that me starting my period meant so much to her, and that she thought that it was important enough to find my baby book that was buried under tons of more recent photo albums to write in 3 words. I am sorry your thinking ok no biggy. But to me a tear came to my eye and I was truly touched by the thoughtfulness, and excitement of a mother who's daughter just became a women. Well... That act (phew... How many years ago) really touched me today.